For donkey years,i had not touched my blog. Reason because i had not surf the net for decades,due to not touching my computer as long as not surfing the net.
i tend to talk to toys rather than human beings recently.Sounds like some kids who suffer autism.lol. But well,i find it kinda entertaining. They are great listeners,they are faithful(cos they cant run anywhere either),and they always give that same smiling expressions.lol.
Anyways,side-tracking from this topic,went to watch a movie this evening which was highly rated in a website-Inglorious Bastards. A movie which can be viewed using various angles. From my point of view,people who are looking for inspirations to crack lame jokes to irritate your enemies/friends,feel free to watch it.i'm sure you'll get enough inspirations out of it. People who cant endure the bitterness of lame jokes(people like me),you're advised to give it a miss.Skip it! I'm not sure if i'm not intellectual enough or lacking in historical knowledge of Nazism. To my knowledge,it's not much of a link. Moral of this lesson-do not trust ratings of movie from a any-old-how website. that's all for this entry. a-dieu,blog.

Michael jackson said something very right.
That is : the world need more love.
alot of people know what's love all about,they tried to love.
But they have all forgotten what is pure and innocent love all about.
actions mostly came with motives and purposes,as often forgot about the importance of a pure motive of love normally differ in miles from love out of other purposes.
coming to the subject of pure love,i guess adults are the ones who need to observe and learn from children.nowadays people often choose friends,emphazing on 利用价值.i classify these as ignorance.because,they know not of having a pure heart.

how is it like to know you're the pop star with the most fans in the world?
how is it like to stand on a stage listening to countless of fans cheering and shouting your name?
how is it like to know you're the most succesful singer in history?
michael jackson's life,i think is like a legend.
almost imposibly.
impossibly famous,impossibly rich,impossibly daring,impossibly amazing.
leaving people in the maze of his life-a mystery.
though not a hard core fan of his,i find it convincing why he gained such a vast popularity.
this sudden lost of this star left fans in tears,left concert organiser in trouble,left media goin round earning money from his death news.
though not really that sad,but i do sympathize his life.it seemed incomplete,to leave in the toughest period of his life.

tribute to this grand life and music of the greatest pop star -Michael Jackson.

祷告之时甘甜之时
使我离开烦恼之事
来到神的座前发表
所有意愿所有需要
当我遇到重压忧愁
我灵却常得着自由
不陷恶者所有布置
因为有你祷告之时
祷告之时甘甜之时
如有只翼载我愿辞
来他宝座向他求恳
他是信实他是全真
他既命我寻求他面
信他话语靠他恩典
我要将我重担卸释
在于你前甘甜之时

time for me to explore cookery.
i suppose it can be a form of art as well.
to be expressed,to impress,to experience.
i think i am quite abled in this.though,limited in knowledge.
i don't intend to join this workforce.but this can be an interest.
every form of art delivers a different message.
different people produces different taste of art,as uniquely as they were created.
and cookery produces food,and the taste of satisfaction,
carbonara is certainly a nice dish to cook,but getting beyond that would certainly be more adventurous.i enjoy food.and i shall explore the skill of making it.

went to ikea wif ace and mei hwa.
and i ate AlOT.i had my yesterday nite's supper,my breakfast,lunch and dinner all in a meal at once.so needless to say,i ate and ate and ate.hee.
ikea's food is always so delicious,esp. tat "doesn't look appetizing yet can make your appetite burst" gravy.as i was gobbling my food,mei hwa and ace were havin entertainment jokin at my appetite,while i'm havin fun laughin at their jokes.
but from within these jokes,i realised something-my precious's high level of acceptance for me.
i do sports like t-rex.
i ate like dinosaurs.
i slp like pig.
whenever i said i'm still hungry after a big meal,he'll jus give as sweet smile asked,wat else would u like to eat..? but i pray i wont hav an appetite as big as universe tat could eat his asset away.lol.
ikea,still my fav. eatin and shoppin place for now.
and i wanna decorate my rm!!!

this somehow describes kinda accurately...hee.


Feb baby...
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

highlighted ones are me.hee.

Many had dreams in the world of the ARTS.




but how many had actually realised it in the reality.

sometimes...

it's better to face 4 walls,a screen and listen to gentle voices.
rather than going out to face many,yet listen to many not worth listenin.

it's better to understand a few,than to know a thousand acquintances.

it's better to search within self,than searchin self in others.

it's better to be average,than be the best yet fell the deepest.

it's better to be the hard-hearted me,than to be soft hearted and be deprived,again.

it's better to hate the world,than knowing the world hated me.

it's better to be with one or two,than be surrounded with imposters and liars.

it's better to cry a real cry,than to laugh a fake laughter.


i know who is true.i know who had hidden self-centered motives.i know who are here only when in trouble.i know who are the hi-bye acquintance.

it's better to be an observer than to be in the picture and be observed.

weeeh~
i have a new account for emails liao.
and i mean,Proper emails.the purpose of creating a new email was that i was so buay tahan of those rubbish forwarded mails which says: "send this to at least __ friends or else watever will happen,or there'll be bad luck or watsoever..." grr...pls la...it's not the problem of luck or wat,but i would simply 被气死 by jus looking at these kinda mail loh.so,those who necessarily or friendi-ly want my new email add,can text or msn me personally.but if i refuse to give u,perhaps u're the one who often forward this kinda mail so[i did observe who are those who believe in this kinda thing]...pls kick off this habit.lol.unless the story benefit one's knowledge gaining,or can inspire,or can help somebody[very rare case],or else,forget it man. playing with my email account,don't know what's so fun about it but,jus exploring.
oh ya,it's lunch time. miss the mac mocha[eversince i daringly tried it with a risk of some low class/standard beverage in an air-conditioned environment],but i'm lazy to walk. nasi bryani and lime green tea from sweetalk downstairs would be enough to turn my tastebud upside down.
FOOD!!! here i come!

today is a sor po day.lol.
happy birthday to joleen from DI.

to jol,
shared quite alot of pretty fun and fruitful time with u. our first chat started off so randomly, coincidently,and interesting in the bus on x'mas ton night as i "eavesdrop" u and kerlyn's conversation. miss our lady's tau pok,your terrible wake up groans for me,the vroom vroom noise for making ppl awake,and most importantly the sharings overnight during arete camp. anyways,jus like any other,this friendship had been through tough times as well before. and i'm glad i still had a occasional faithful friend like u in my life.you're someone who can go so deep into thinking,someone who know how to take gd care of image,someone who can encourage,someone who can have fun and jokes with,someone who can share tough times and thoughts with,and very importanly,someone who can enjoy FOOD with.hehehehe.i shall eat in an inelegant but appetizing way the next time i go out for food with u.lol. wanna encourage u to continue to clench the promises of God in your heart and continue to walk in faith,build your shield[knowledge in God's word] strong,step out for growth as u start entering the stage of maturity. glad to have u as a sister-in-Christ and a buddy. last but not least...
Happy birthday to u~!!! hugz!
deep from my heart,
Abigail.

finally...
we managed to find time to watch it,on sat.
MAMA MIA!
wooh,it's such a musically nice show. better than wat i expected. i thought the story line will be lousy but it turn out to fit the songs in a very cute way. my fav. track is the very last song played during the crew list rolls. which is in my blog,maybe playing in your com while u guys read this.
the musicians like ABBA is really much more skillful than the musicians in our generation.
even if this generation's musician are skillful,it's skilled in a way that the song only show off the skill,but for some songs the music itself rot to the core.
abba rocks! the mama crew who revamp the songs were cool too.

met ace today.
it's not bad. more fruitful than i've imagined to be.
thank God,thx 牧羊人.
yesterday chen talked about growing spiritual life.
i'm interested in growth.but curious why such a sudden topic.
reason,long to mention here. but as a whole,i guess God spoke.
i remembered the very rare ez-link sticker of mine which had this verse on it,but i lost it with the ez-link card.
i highlighted the verse. shows that this verse long spoke to me.
i forgotten,and it's again being brought upon in my mind.

growth is not merely a man's work.
i'm just the branches,but You're the vine.





+John 15:1-5+

do not tell yourself you're alone.

one can never be alone no matter how a loner u wanna be.
that can be good,that can be bad.
but mostly it's a gd thing,cause people can rarely smile or laugh while exclaiming that they're a loner.
solitude is healthy,loneliness is self-destroy.

i find this interesting. for music lovers.
well,to a certain extent i find this research reliable.
but still,sad for the pop lover. Oops. LOL!

Mozart and Metallica fans kindred spirits: Research
Heavy metal fans and lovers of classical music have more in common than they like to think, according to research published Friday by a university in Edinburgh.
Although fans of bands like Metallica are traditionally portrayed as work-shy, long-haired students and lovers of Mozart are seen as sober and hard-working, researchers found that both music types attract creative people who are at ease with themselves but can be introverted.
But classical music fans have high self-esteem while heavy rock fans lack self-belief, the team at Heriot-Watt University in Edinburgh found.
Indie music listeners lack self-esteem and lovers of pop music are uncreative, while country and western fans are hard-working and rap fans have an outgoing personality.
The three-year study on the links between personality and music taste was led by psychology professor Adrian North.
"We have always suspected a link between music taste and personality. This is the first time that we've been able to look at it in real detail. No-one has ever done this on this scale before," he said.
"People do actually define themselves through music and relate to other people through it but we haven't known in detail how music is connected to identity."
North added: "One of the most surprising things is the similarities between fans of classical music and heavy metal. They're both creative and at ease but not outgoing.
"The general public has held a stereotype of heavy metal fans being suicidally depressed and of being a danger to themselves and society in general. But they are quite delicate things."
The research could have many uses in marketing, the professor said.
"If you know a person's music preference you can tell what kind of person they are, who to sell to. There are obvious implications for the music industry who are worried about declining CD sales."
More than 36,000 people around the world took part in the research, making it the biggest survey of its kind ever conducted.
People were asked to rate 104 musical styles and were also questioned on their personality traits.



what am i doing here in singapore...
why did i let it stress me?

whatever,i'm just looking forward to daybreak for a morning spread.
or when i wake up it gonna be afternoon.
perhaps a fruitful prayer and some dim sum will somewhat somehow console me.

-gd nite..? gd morning..?-

It has often been said that cholerics are either great saints. . . or great sinners. Paul was probably a choleric. He was a brilliant and zealous Pharisee—driven, at first, to persecute the early Christian community, but then, after his conversion, he became the greatest defender of the faith. If you are a choleric, humility comes with difficulty. You have a predilection for doing your own will, and thinking that you always know what is right and best. But, once you commit yourself to a life of virtue and growth in holiness, your determination will be turned toward service of Christ and the Church. A good spiritual director will help you identify God’s will for you, and attentiveness to your prayer life, especially meditative prayer, will help your naturally quite active temperament become more contemplative.






whose gonna be that gd spiritual director...
what's the standard of 'good'?




*Note: dear readers,if reading part of this entry have caused u discomfort,u think u gonna be stumbled,u think u gonna hate me,or u think it's gonna lead u to asking me questions,then back off and close this window. i have the freedom to speak in my blog and will not be reliable or responsible or any external feelings or reactions caused.




back to topic.
in the first place,why am i a choleric?
i'm glad to be a choleric anyways. cause we fit phlegmaticans.
i love getting along with this species. don't mind working with them also.
melancholicans,don't mention. they surrounds me.
so what if they are artistically incline and can relate.
they[95% of them who surrounds me] don't make good friends.
tired of being a perfectionist. i'm pretty balanced now.
so i shall interact less for less infections.
anyways,if not for the cause,i won't even wanna interact.
for now,some factors had deprived me from the cause.
sometimes i would say it's very unfair.
but what's fair on earth?
even seeing them take the consequences won't make things right for me again.
some mistakes sometimes can't be afford to even be birthed into a mistake.
there are things and feelings that can never be undone.
especially when somebody other than yourself is involved.
as for my wrong,i wouldn't have been a great sinner if i would just be less nitpicking,grudge-bearing and critical.
sometimes,i just hope i can be someone like Paul.
sometimes,i just hope Your love can guide me back to where i should stay on.
sometimes,i just hope i can be someone u treasure.
sometimes.some hopes.some tarnished.

wahs~

feel kind of shiok.

i was late for fitness class yesterday. so the instructor gave me a challange of running/jogging continuously for 30minutes before she mark my attendance. if i don't do it,then it's just simply getting zero for attendance. eventually still went ahead with it. anyways won't die one rite.

i have a different insight in doing sports now.
Especially getting myself into the mode of physical training.
another thing was,i think i wanna tone up. though now i realise i should've done this when i was 16. but if i don't do it now,i probably will think that i should do it now at the age of 25 or 30.
feel like participating in standard chartered. but i guess 10k will be good enough-that's my standard for now.

the one hour of NMS phase test is really a mental torture. lol.

i prefer theory test instead. but i'll love DMT phase test even more. few of my genius classmates are studying the whole testbook for the coming test now. others talking about girls. i wonder why some guys are so interested in this kinda topics -_- zzz.

looking forward for holidays....arh!!! holidays!!! i'm desperate for it.

i am really desperate for it. just that i haven't start planning it only.
for now...having satisfying meals and a couple of fruitful conversations will be enough for me.

i had a fruitful chat yesterday. though it didn't last for very long like the common fruitful chats will last,it was good enough.



to this person.



i am surprised,yet i am sorry.

it takes me very long to realise how much effort you've put in.

and how much burden you've carried.

it takes you so much to had hide it from me for so long i guess.

not in suspend,because i did not even realise a drop of it at all.

you'd probably say that i do not need to feel sorry at all.

but it's a fact i've taken it all for granted in the past all along.

i just wanna tell you that it is no longer a victory,

but something you deserve to own.

mysteries related all unravelled.

i can feel more than what i can feel.

and i can understand more than what i can fathom.

i am thankful.

that you have unravel almost the deepest me.

so deep that i don't even know myself.

God is the only one who is able to know every drop of me.

but you've discovered the deepest of how much a human being can know about me.

it's shocking.yet,heart-warming.

stand up from the crowds.
stand away from the mist.

and everything will be clear.
as clear as stones in pure water

confused.

confused.

confused.





So many things unsolved.
Solution is made and agreed,just wanna get on with it.
i just wanna get settled down,with nothing as my baggage. Except for my belongings.
that's all.simple.


i only see clouds,for now.

致：年轻丽智的枚桦，

Firstly,want to wish u a happy 25th birthday!!!
Woosh,what a golden maturing age.LOL!
Really grateful to have a buddy,a sister in Christ like you.You’ve really been a supportive friend all these while,whether rain or shine.
Wanna affirm you of being a positive role model.Well,at least to me. 
Your life sharing testimonies and blogs have always been inspiring to me.In shine,to inspire me to even chiong more for God.In rain,to continue to walk strong with Him.occasionally when tiredness interrupts my spiritual walk,your blog often reflects God’s faithfulness in life.This really edify me in terms of being reminded that God is workin in many areas of many’s lives,similarly will He too,be workin in my life.You’ve always been someone encouraging,sensitive to people’s feelings[includes being understanding],and loving.All these,from observing u always taking time to concern the lives of many ex/DI-ans.And I seriously enjoy fruitful life-sharing chats with you.
Continue to stay young and cheerful as you have always been.Yet mature your walk with God,glorifying Him in whatever you do.
Love ya loads!

-玉谕 上